I didn’t leave. She did and with good reason. The past looks good because it was, mostly. The usual culprits got in the way: sex and money. And terrible communication skills. She told me what she needed and wanted but I was too defensive to listen and take action.

Back then, I did not have the insight years of therapy have provided. I was terrified of being alone. Not anymore.

Knowing what I know now, I would have made different decisions.

It has been 9 years of no contact (her choice) and I have not met anyone that engages all my senses the way she did.

I miss her.